Moon All Alone

   
           I am sitting by my bed edge reading a novel and when i am done with the regular reading for the time i keep it at the side and just stare the roof . It is a human nature to think even if u don't have to and suddenly then my eyes follow the silvery shine in my room through the passage from a grilled window . I looked up from my head board of the bed opened my window completely to witness the silver shine. Every night when ever i have felt lonely this light holds my vision and takes me to a different place paralleled to it. A fantasy land i would say it for my dream world. There will be a sudden smile stretched on my lips n the silver shines dances in my eyes. I am happy when ever i see the Moon cause it takes me away from this world to a different world . I am happy cause this may be a shiny little star but it always stays with me when ever i m lonely i just have to look up and if by chance i m too engaged in my own thoughts it will send the rays putting my thoughts back to him.
 
         Moon who is loved and adored by humans and almost all the livings is very mysterious to me. When i am alone i just have the Moon for me but sometimes i just wonder the shiny star is All Alone up there. Why ? this question randomly comes into my mind when ever i see the moon. are the stars up there jealous of the moon? I guess this cannot be fully true as we do see few stars glittering around the moon some times don't we. As on the second thought the moon may be once a very handsome and clear shiny and all the little stars may be too mesmerized by the moon [ like most of the people r mesmerized by salman khan ] and they may use to flirt with the moon. Popularity comes with a curse and gift both so may be the great sun on hearing the popularity of the moon must have disliked him and burned him out of anger on his head out of jealousy and must have warned the tiny little stars to be away from the moon or else he may do the same to the rest. The stars diffidently must be very scared as it the sun who is the most powerful of all in universe no one can go against him. Thus a distance were kept from moon but a affection and love is something which is deaf  to such orders. Those who tried to be close to the Moon they were burned to meteors and there ashes were the covers for the full moon. But they cannot love the MOON  close enough and that is all needed, cause what's the use of a love when there is no closeness to be felt .

             My Moon is all Alone in the sky. 

collage moments....

i me n myself is a big camera person my sentence 'this is ngiakhushi reporting from jssmc ' is like a landmark for all my pics n videos .....
family and friends or any one just in contact with me knows very well that i am a big clicking person....i do enjoy taking pics anytime anywhere but this joy gets double when i watch those pics and videos ... it's almost like re living that phase of time again...
reason for writing this post is not cause i have a blog n i can write what pleases me or to blah blah bout myself but this post is specially for the people who r a no pic person...i know few frnds who dnt like to click plus click also....it's not necessary that set of people who r not into it sud or will go out n make sure to buy a camera ...
no nothing of that sought but i just wanna let u know that u guys are missing the most amazing expression of life ...yes right expressions feelings n m not talking stupid as i know wat i feel wen i c pics of mine with parents n most of my pic collection is of me with my friends good n bad times both...some times best friends are not so close but i have realised that pic n video can work on the bitterness...even it is for a short time u'll be happy n emotional for that point of time....
i came across a friend who said he dsnt have much pics of his family n he is embarrassed now cause he has to ask his relatives for the particular pic of his daughter ...well he is a busy man but i made him promise to get a camera for himself this time n to click click click n click ....
guys just keep clicking  as those may be pic wen u click but in as i c it u r making a collage moments out of life which may help u experience u those moments with an unexplained emotions ....u'll sit n watch n cry n smile n xcited to xplain it even if not asked ....
wen i c a photo i dnt c the few faces or place but wat i c is the time i was there with friends so close dsnt matter if they r not here now but i am just happy i did had them then ....i feel my all pics n videos so frnds plz just give it a try... take pics n save those moments which can be worthy of more than u think of ...
so start making  ur collage of moments ....

waiting for a new day.....

trying to walk straight ....
trying to see through the fog of shades.... 
been there to show them....
been there for them....
every thing done as said to be good...
but why am I still waiting .....
when I know the way....
but still I want a hand....
when I know I can ....
but still I need faith soon in me...
why am I still waiting FOR A NEW DAY...
every day thinking this can be the day
who can make it my day....

patang...

" मैं हूँ एक पतंग 

         रखना प्यार से,

उर्र जाउंगी मैं 

         नीले गगन मैं,

जो तुम ने खीचा 

         डोर को जोर से,

चाह कर भी न 

         वापस आ पाऊँगी,

तुम्हारे इस ज़मीन पे

        दूर गगन से "

main hun nadaan

"मैं हूँ नादाँ 

        समझना ना आसान,

 फिर भी हूँ  मैं 

         सभी की प्यारी,

 हस्ती हासती 

         सभी का मन बहलाती,

 रूठे को मानती 

          बिचरे को मिलाती,

 चुप रहूँ तो सब चुप रहे 

          रूठ जाओं तो सब मनाये,

 ऐसी ही हूँ मैं जिसे 

         समझना है मुश्किल,

आसान नहीं हूँ मैं 

         मैं हूँ नादान "

WHAT IF....

devils reunion....
funny ...I was packed up in my own world thinking I do not need any friends after some sweet experiences... .and then suddenly one night I get a call from anshu thinking just an another general call....but no it was not as she told me about the reunion and the venue is in bangalore itself... I was like no na nahi n never ...ok I am not coming ...why? because it is almost 12 years or so even more ....who will remember me... and then what will i do there....
just after her call very casually i was talking to my enemy friend about the reunion and he started shouting that I am nuts and that I should go ..... I was like no I cannot because I know only anshu there and do not know if others remember me any more... then he said that don not go with the idea of meeting school friends but go by the thoughts of making new friends..... I should go he ordered and i was like no harm in trying to make new friends....
so I was ready in a way .... I booked a room in the guest house named regal touch in koramangala...amazing place and the best service...in fact the manager indradev mahto turned out to be from ranchi ...so we got a bonus..
one night anshu called again but this time on conference with pri as in priyanka modi.....god the excitement in her voice just did the wonder in me and then after the call I was like what the hell I am going...
I was not getting proper sleep as the days were coming near by I was getting the blood rush making it difficult to rest ... I just wanted to be there n finish it...there is a record for me that I do not carry much luggage but this time something went wrong as if my record itself was acting against me... I borrowed an air bag from danu-sur bh. and it was heavy ... I was so amazed that I was just sitting in front of the bag thinking what and why and how...but then time was running so so short that I was like hell with it ... I will carry if I have to but I am not going to waste my time being late on this...
I boarded bus around 5 pm reached bangalore satellite bus stand around 8 or so then went to majestic bus stand around 9 then I finally got the bus for the bus for the airport....waiting for anshu ...received her with flowers and then got a drop from his brother to our guest house...room was neat n clean n fresh with an extra  glass room which was just add on we all liked it as all our stuffs were thrown there...
I could not sleep as I was watching time ... I wanted to receive pri n akku as in akanksha sinha from majestic
but the great pri's cell was off...but then she did called and said not to come as they have already started for koramangala... I was waiting for them at the gate and here comes the auto full of mischief girls....the auto wala did not knew what dynamite he was dropping...
we met...we hugged...we shared...we complained....we danced...we pulled legs...we did all and let we chatted ...we chatted ...we chatted again n again we chatted....teaching every one to either call me khushi or gia.....meeting every one was great and the best was like they did remember me as baby khushboo sharma but pri handled it by  oh god it was like were not letting even a single minute wasted....3 days and nights was is and will not be compared to anything ...it is so damn precious moments ..
I met every one and each one was special in there own way but then I met the devils I my self never thought that I would get some gems of my life....the airport stay then the majestic stay is beyond the explainable expression...it just cannot be told ....the 3 of us only cannot put it in words ...it was the feeling which we 3 carry with in and will cherish it through out our life...this brings a smile in our heart ...
when I came back from the reunion I was just thinking WHAT IF I had ignored my friends advice [ I owe you ] and WHAT IF I had not talked to pri and then WHAT IF I had not gone...nothing would have happened much apart from having a wonderful time plus having some crazy ticking n sugar friends....the trip may be short and sweet but I have gained a lot .....from now onwards there is no more place for WHAT IF.....

my soulfully harami friends....

here is my entry in the world of freedom speech.....and i just cannot enter it without mentioning my soulfully harami friends...if you think why? then I would say it is because of them I am finally able to do things which I have always wanted to....their haramipan is so of positively charged with confidence for me that its making to do it ....even its not for me I like it....
so even thou we are so well connected and it is like a pack of devils but  still they all are my soulfully harami friends cause they are.....